What’s up dudes, writing something a little bit different today that I would like to share with y’all. I haven’t posted a blog on here in a while, and a lot of it has to do with because I was unsure what directions I wanted to take it in. There are lots of different things going on in my head, so I hope y’all enjoy this raw brain dump of a blog and will stick around for what’s to come.
Internal Controversy
I do not have many blog posts up currently, but I am 75% unhappy with what I do have up. I enjoy talking about mental health and fashion in such, however, in my past posts I have felt like it was exemplary of me and my personality. When I started the blog, I started watching YouTube videos on blogging and a majority of the videos out there instruct on growing your blog to make a nice income. While this is something that would be cool as fuck to do, I feel that by tailoring my blog that way, the audience (and myself) can lose touch with the rawness and honesty that I want my blog to present.
I started this blog because I wanted to share my personality, feelings, and honest thoughts with anyone who wants to listen. I do have social anxiety, so doing so on YouTube or social media is a large first step for me to take, so I figured blogging would be a great way to help me get comfortable expressing myself. Creating a “commercialized” blog had me feeling like I wasn’t really sharing my real self, and was only trying to make sure the audience was hearing what they wanted. This isn’t really what I want.
The Future
I want to blog just to express myself and see if anyone would listen. I’m looking for a way to just goof around and share my personality without putting myself visually out there too much at first to ease myself in and not get anxious about what others will think. From here on out, I plan to honor my original intentions of starting a blog. I’m going by to talk about random shit, my day to day feelings, and whatever I want and hope people enjoy it and listen.
In the end, I just hope people see that they can share their personalities in this world and be free. Personally, I am working on social anxiety so I think that this is a great work to make progress on that as well. Also, talking stuff out internally helps me figure out a lot of answers to why I’m feeling certain ways or what I should do in certain situations, and I think that having a blog and just writing out thoughts will help with that as well. This might not be the most interesting blog ever cause I’m just a normal dude figuring out life as he goes, but I hope it resonates with some out there.
I hope y’all stick around and continue to tune it so we can just talk about life and random everyday shit. Looking forward to continuing this in the future. All love.